hey
i feel in between well and not very well, and the weathers not helping. As a matter of fact i have not felt quite right since thursday, i dont think ive had the time to rest and recover. My weekend was hectic.. had cricket on sat then went out to watch the soccer game sydney vs melbourne it was alright but not realli my cup of tea. Sunday i went to the beach but didnt realli go out into the surf and then went bowling- that was fun i got 147 in my second game im so proud of my score.
I have trouble comprehending many issues in life, and i think about it quite frequently. There are many things in life that we as individuals have no control over. For example we all know terrorism in australia is inevitable.. we cant stop it and one day lots of innocent people are going to die. Its a war we cannot win. I have also realised that i am scared to die.. i can be told i got cancer tmrow and then die within months or i could be hit by a bus. I would hate to be old and then slowly deteriorate and die also. I could go on forever about that but im actually not in the mood and im stugglying bigtime to express myself.
Im happy for the friendships i have.. and i guess thats what makes me want to wake up in the morning knowing that i have people who care about me. Im still looking for that special someone and i guess if i have anything missing in my life it would be that. I once thought i would have one girlfriend and then marry her and live happily ever after.. but obviously thats not to be. I dunno if i have too higher expectations. Drinking alchohol has been on the rise again it can actually peak to a few times a week now which is making me emotionally unstable and think about things i dont want to think about such as the stuff mentioned in my blog.
I really dont want to read what ive read even tho i have and i sound like a total nut. But as i said im stuggling to express my feelings. I actually dont want any1 to read this but if i have then shutup and understand that this is my personal blog and the only way i can actually express anything that i dont to my friends or a counsellor.
On a little different note.. Sam when i think about it it makes me quite sad.. i hope things work out, if u need a chat im always here hey besides thats what friends are for right? anyways most probably see u tmrow with my other dear uni friends :)
Bye for now sorry if ive made anyone reading this depressed because that is what i have made myself.
Robbie
i feel in between well and not very well, and the weathers not helping. As a matter of fact i have not felt quite right since thursday, i dont think ive had the time to rest and recover. My weekend was hectic.. had cricket on sat then went out to watch the soccer game sydney vs melbourne it was alright but not realli my cup of tea. Sunday i went to the beach but didnt realli go out into the surf and then went bowling- that was fun i got 147 in my second game im so proud of my score.
I have trouble comprehending many issues in life, and i think about it quite frequently. There are many things in life that we as individuals have no control over. For example we all know terrorism in australia is inevitable.. we cant stop it and one day lots of innocent people are going to die. Its a war we cannot win. I have also realised that i am scared to die.. i can be told i got cancer tmrow and then die within months or i could be hit by a bus. I would hate to be old and then slowly deteriorate and die also. I could go on forever about that but im actually not in the mood and im stugglying bigtime to express myself.
Im happy for the friendships i have.. and i guess thats what makes me want to wake up in the morning knowing that i have people who care about me. Im still looking for that special someone and i guess if i have anything missing in my life it would be that. I once thought i would have one girlfriend and then marry her and live happily ever after.. but obviously thats not to be. I dunno if i have too higher expectations. Drinking alchohol has been on the rise again it can actually peak to a few times a week now which is making me emotionally unstable and think about things i dont want to think about such as the stuff mentioned in my blog.
I really dont want to read what ive read even tho i have and i sound like a total nut. But as i said im stuggling to express my feelings. I actually dont want any1 to read this but if i have then shutup and understand that this is my personal blog and the only way i can actually express anything that i dont to my friends or a counsellor.
On a little different note.. Sam when i think about it it makes me quite sad.. i hope things work out, if u need a chat im always here hey besides thats what friends are for right? anyways most probably see u tmrow with my other dear uni friends :)
Bye for now sorry if ive made anyone reading this depressed because that is what i have made myself.
Robbie
posted by Robbie at
4:51 PM
2 Comments:
hey..
that is depressing...i suppose we all go thru ups and downs and question why things happen. all i know is that God is watching over us and there's a reason for everything. we're the ones who stuff everything up- as bad as that is! anywayz, i feel crap now! ha ha...see you tomorrow probably!
not love me! there you go sam! (hope whatever it is is ok sam!) ciao
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Anonymous, at 6:05 PM
Hey Robbie.
Yeah life can suck... believe me I know. But as you said its the people around you... friends and people who love you who will help you through. If i didn't have people being there for me on thurs i don't know what i would have done to myself. I was extremely upset. Life is something you don't have control over as much as you wish you did. It's about dealing with these challenges that we are thrown and if you deal with it them the right way, hopefully you are able to come out with some positive aspect. C u tomoz. xx
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