What an awesome and hectic week it has been!! It’s so cool when you are just so busy you don’t even have time to sit down and contemplate things that have been happening. Well it’s been one of those weeks, until now haha. However I must not procrastinate and get crackin with uni work- well soon enough I will!

My weekend started off a Blast- with a capital B. Of course I’m talking about the Swans game. They played Fremantle. Fremantle were very courageous but they were blown off the park by a red hot Sydney. I mean this literally, as Mark, Dave, Brad and I, soaked up the atmosphere and 61,000- strong crowd from corporate seats! We had Freo fans infront of us and boy did we give them slack. I lost my voice half way through but I still managed to passionately tell the unfortunate supporter to ‘sit down you clown’ after a Freo goal. But of course, this crowd didn’t have much to cheer about as our home crowd definitely drowned them out at every opportunity.

After the game we traveled down the escalators, past all the suited corporate members in Gucci Suits holding champagne glasses. Then mid-way we ran into Andrew Demetriou- The AFL boss and shook hands with him- he offered us a solitary ‘Good luck to the swans next week.’ Then the all- popular Eddie Maguire walked passed, swarmed by a large crowd. He is actually bigger in real life than on TV!

Recovery was paramount for Sat but I survived and played out the best bit of 1hr as I watched ball after ball disappear to the boundary. They resumed at 4/74 to chase down 137 and it took them less than 1hr to do this without loss of wicket! So then I arrived at Mandy’s place earlier than expected. I was actually the 3rd person there- courtesy of Beth’s- “You are the third person here”! So we played many sports- from volleyball to soccer to footy until the inevitable darkness came over us.

So we huddled around the bonfire but struggled to really get it going! We hopelessly shoved some marshmallows over the bonfire but it was clear we needed more fire. We literally needed this cos we are all pyromaniacs- we just wanted to burn something, or see something burning, big! So we started another bonfire in the large expanses of Mandy’s farm- backyard. Here we got a fairly big bonfire going and boy did we have many burnt marshmallows! It’s all about technique peoples!! So anyway it was a good night and I guess it was pretty cool hanging out with people I generally know very little about. Thanks Mandy, Beth and everyone else who helped organised the event!

Sometimes it strikes me about how much has changed, and how quickly it is happening… so many sacrifices but yet it has given me hope. I am still a little mixed up, struggling to comprehend, I guess, changes in attitudes, behaviour, lifestyle- my life. If I could separate my life into phases, I guess I would have started one about 3months ago. It has been a steady journey, but yet it has been tough. I am very happy for it and I only hope that I will find many answers as time goes by. It has been great that there are actually people to talk to, as opposed to just being on your own and solving problems you own way- often that being leaving the problem alone and hoping it will go away. Pride, respect, popularity, superficial things- don’t matter anymore? I’d like to say so. The bible, church and homegroup has taught me many things, and though many of my friends think ‘what has happened to you’- I will never be ashamed of God, especially after what he has done for us. His presence gives me strength and guidance. I’m sure many friends who are reading this would have stopped at the God bit, but I will never give up on them. No-one has ever given up on me, so I could never do the same to anyone else the same way God will never give up on us.

Please don’t hold back on comments,
Robbie

To Everyone

What a busy week it has been and no it surely dosent stop there.. this weekend is going to be even busier!

I had a great time at the social for our homegroup/bible study group last night. The night started off well, with monopoly being played one end of the room and another game which involved growing beans on the other end! I couldnt make up my mind but i eventually abandoned monopoly! So then the girls started playing a shopping game with cards, sorta like snap but we had to buy items from each others chosen shops. I think my slow-to-react-witt really got exposed here. I was the first one to lose all the cards in my pile but with some scabbing of cards i made several re-entries into the game. I also lost in connect4 so all in all it was a pretty miserable night in terms of winning! But i enjoyed it!

Must say i am really relieved that the exam for heritage at UNSW is over! I know i went badly probably due to my poor memory which has always been a problem come exam time. Glad its over and i'm really looking forward to this weekend! Im going to the swans game friday night and that should be awesome! Sat i have cricket followed by another social event this time for the 18-24 group at church. I'll be geared up with the corkhat and marshmellows :P Hopefully i can make that.

Look forward to catching up with everyone in the mid semester break..

Byes for now
Robbie

Long time no blog, I know. It’s been hard for me to express my feelings because they change so dramatically so often.

Ive had a very busy week, with a little bit of everything happening. Uni has been ok, went on a field trip on Tuesday (which involved sitting in a bus, then walking around looking at peoples houses) and a quiz (well exam) on Thursday. So as you could expect the weekend was a welcome relief.

I was a couch potato for a bit of it watching chic flicks including Bridget Jones’ Diary! I was a football (AFL) fanatic for a bit of the weekend too watching the swans smash Carlton!! Went out to one of my favorite club/ nightclubs on Sat night in Gymea Tradies- its interesting to be there on a different perspective: a sober one. I worked too, and that was fun coz I got to catch up with someone I hadn’t seen for a long time. She gave me a lift home- well her mom did, which saved me walking home!! I was so tired and pretty dead I don’t think I could have made it walking. And church was cool, someone was meant to pick me up and she forgot so I had to get my dad off the couch, and I was late! I was a little upset over that with a combination of other things, so I didn’t talk to her at church. A little sad over that but I think im fine.

Ive been kept busy with so many things, but I’m finding it hard in general. Im losing my identity as a person, I don’t know who I am or what im becoming. It seems im living so many different lives. Nothing is integrative; my life consists of triangular shapes trying to fit into square holes. My Church life seems to be so moralistic, trying to repent all I have done wrong and bad habits in which I still struggle with. I want to become a better person but I am changing my ways more so because this new community, which I have become a part of, are good people constantly trying to better themselves for the love of God. I am trying to do good so I will not be judged by these people and that I may identify with them. I am not doing it purely because of the love of God- which is pretty much the purpose of going to church. Im definitely struggling with it.

I pray that I may be guided and that my friends may continue doing what they have always done for me. They all know how much they mean to me even if I don’t show it all the time.

Till Next Time,
Robbie